I’m a multipassionate witch, and my ideal career is multifaceted. I truly want to build more than one career: My first career is in environmental policy, and my second is as a tarot reader.
But I have a confession to make: I haven’t been balancing my multiple careers all that well.
This isn’t a terribly unique problem. Everyone struggles with balance. This is a problem especially acute in multipassionates like myself. If you follow the work of Emilie Wapnick at all, this will all sound very familiar. (Not sure what a multipassionate is? Check out Emilie’s TED talk.)
My entire life, I have invested in educating myself and made more space for my career in public policy. I’m ok with this, but I still feel frustrated sometimes.
Here’s how that frustration has manifested for me recently:
“I don’t get it! I’ve been reading tarot for over ten years, why is it so hard to put myself out there?”
“AGH I have so many ideas for blog posts, but I can’t get my brain to do the writing!”
“I totally have time to work on the free e-book I’m planning. *two days later* Oops, my masters thesis is due earlier than I thought. Guess all my writing energy is going there!”
And as I get more and more frustrated that I’m not living up to my full potential in one of my careers, my workaholic self kicks in.
This frustration can lead me to work too much, to push myself, to steam ahead even though my creative spirit is telling me to stop. When I get writer’s block, I know I need to do something different. All careers have their cycles, and sometimes your multiple careers experience wonky phases at the same time. And when I try to push forward in one career at the expense of the other, I lose balance.
I realized that I’m frustrated because I’ve been resisting the natural cycles of my careers.
At this week’s Brooklyn Fools gathering, we were focusing on the Wheel of Fortune. Jeff had each of us do a tarot reading for ourselves, and asked us to meditate on what cycles are ending and beginning in our lives.
I have been so out of touch with my current cycle that I couldn’t see it. Even though I recently moved away from my home of ten years, even though I am putting the finishing touches on my masters degree, I saw myself as right smack in the middle of a cycle. I thought, because I’ve emotionally processed my move, that cycle was well and done and I am already in the “middle” of the next cycle.
No. That cycle won’t be completed until I have finished my degree, defended my professional paper, and walked across that stage.
But that doesn’t mean that the next cycle hasn’t already begun. The wheel continues to turn.
And in order to rock the hell out of the next cycle, I need to honor the place that this cycle has had in my life.
For weeks now, the cards have been throwing pentacles at me. And that has clicked into clarity: Slow and steady. Finish the damn thing.
I hear you, Queen of Pentacles. And I see you on the horizon, Queen of Cups.
That’s all well and good, but what does “honoring cycles” look like?
For me, honoring cycles looks like focus. It looks like holding space for both endings and beginnings.
It looks like throwing myself into my research, creating small rituals within my academic life. Like hanging out with my flourite wand while I write. And burning a candle in my Himalayan salt candle holder. It looks like going back and reading old journal entries, reading old articles I’ve written, and even looking at old versions of my resume.
And even as I do these things, it means making a list of everything I am excited for in the next cycle.
Most of all, honoring cycles means being honest with my needs.
But what does that mean?
Spend time with your journal. Be honest with yourself about where you’re at vs. where you want to be.
Take one day off. I know how hard this is. But take one day to get distance. Before you go into work the next day, take some time in the morning to really journal out where your priority needs to be.
Book a tarot reading. Seriously. And if you read the cards for yourself? Start with doing your own tarot reading, but if you’re still feeling blocked, seek the help of another tarot reader.
Create a secret Pinterest board for each aspect of your multipotentialite life. For me, that means creating a board for Northern Lights Witch, one for school, and one for my policy job. What’s coming up? Are there any themes or similarities between your altars? What do these objects or photos represent, and what do they make you feel? What are you neglecting? Are there commonalities between your boards?
If you want some help with this, I highly recommend this blog post from Jeanna about vision boarding.
Spend time with an actual calendar. If you’re really type A like me, get our your bullet journal or your calendar and physically block off time for your different projects. Where you spend your time is what your priority is. Are you avoiding what should be your main priority?
Look back on your bullet journal of the last couple of months, look back through the season. Get a sense for what cycles mean for you in your life.
I’m still figuring all of this out for myself. I have done a pretty poor job of it in the past. But there’s always a chance to realign yourself, there’s always time to figure it out.
How do you honor the cycles in your career? What do you do when you get frustrated, or lose inspiration?